More on Alexander Novel

The Nanowrimo event will be coming up again. I doubt that I will enter but if I do it would be to continue the story begun last November which must be reworked and rewritten in many places. Essentially, it is a great story and is interesting to me.

I no longer argue with myself about whether I am a case of reincarnation or not, and whether someone as so called mad as Alexander became had really been me. My book will prove whether he did become mad or not as at this point in time I do not believe that he did. But he did become worn and tired, and lost his health in the course of his journey.

What happens is that I go into a form of automatic writing which does somehow or other tap into things that I had not known or considered about him, and for that reason it has been fascinating to let all this come out.

Some of it is suitable for publication but some of it will be censored by myself, as I do not care to share some things that surface from my subconscious to occur in this story. I will see as I go ahead with this book what else I can learn.

I have learned many things just through visualization as for me, images come to me, and sometimes I actually return and relive experiences, and sometimes I only watch and observe Alexander in a situation which does resonate with me.

I have firmly decided that nobody anywhere should be able to know what is another person's mind, heart, and soul but that person himself. I would not want anyone to know when I am having a tantrum, a sense of despair, a sense of joy, or any other aspect of myself from within myself, but only as they are able to see me display it through my facial expression, or body language, or actual discussion of it.

In other words, I am protective of the experiences that I had in these different personalities and do not wish always to share them with the world at large at all.

That means that while I may write this book out as a kind of therapy for myself, I may have reservations about publishing it. I do want part of it published so the editing job will be something to do to make it suitable for public consumption. I am sticking with it nonetheless while I ponder the wisdom of share and tell.

Movies

I spent another weekend catching up on movies that I had not seen when shown at the local cinema. Men Who Stare at Goats, Precious, and Bright Star. I took out two others but have not been able to get into them, Conviction, and The Children of Huang Shi.

I am beginning to have difficulties with this computer and I do not need anyone editing my blogs without my express consent and permission. Telling the plot of a movie on a blog is hardly reason to erase any of it. George Clooney is amusing as a psychic with abnormal powers, and his ability to kill through mental thought is the reason for the title. He kills a goat by simply staring at it. One would think that it preposterous but in fact the military and government is experimenting with such things. I read a book through the Phoenix library system that discussed this totally. So I suspect the movie came from that book.

Voodoo rituals believe in this kind of ability and fear it so maybe the government is taking lessons from Haiti witchcraft. Who knows?

Bright Star is about the love John Keats had for his neighbor Fanny Brawne, and it is a beautiful love story, full of heartache and understanding about the pressure put to bear on John to write. I had no idea that there had been that kind of pressure upon poets in England until I saw this. All I did was study the darn poems, danged if I had to get into the poets heart and soul and head and needs. Keats is most famous for the poem Endymion. I remember that even fifty years after I studied it.

Stupid me, huh? I was not the best when I was a college student...my motivation was gone after a dissolved love affair...I was worse than Keats that way.

Precious is a preposterous story which is both horrid to sit through but fun in its fantasizing and James Thurber means of dreaming that one is something that one is not. The director and editors did a great job on that one. The plot of a fat girl abused by both her mother and father but able to get help and actually climb out of her misery was a bit of a stretch for me. It is difficult enough for average students to make it in this life, but for a girl with real educational difficulties to advance so quickly sounded very too Hollywood. The actress is great, deserved her award as she won a Golden Globe for her role, and she showed why some women would prefer to be lesbians than to have to endure the abuse that she took.

Lesbianism creeps into the story so that is why i say that. For her to have been shoved from the back to land on her face was plainly cruel and unnecessary but apparently black people fear each other more than white people know.

I enjoyed the film since it does give her a happy ending despite being sexually raped, impregnated, mother of 2 and only 16...really totally unbelievable that she can survive at that age with her difficulties.

But so it goes...won't put trailers of films on here. They are all at youtube.

How People Connect

People needing people find each other on discussion groups, in work, and in play, and on facebook and twitter and other groups on the internet. I found a person long ago through a group discussing reincarnation, and tonight watched one of her creative posts to pick up on the word depression.

Depression is a very serious illness. It has attracted a lot of attention, and supposedly, has many varieties of cures. It has a profound effect upon the person who suffers it so that person often cannot function normally as he once did.

If it is due to chemical imbalance it is believed that it can be corrected. I am not certain that anyone really does know what causes it, but it is seriously dehabilitating.

One can try to fight it but usually unless something positive can be done to correct it, the disease itself wins the battle. A person simply slumps, gives in, and lets the dreaded curtain come down until it is finally lifted.

People who have cataracts know that the problem is one of cloudiness. To some extent, depression can be likened to cataracts, but its cloudiness is not so readily and easily removed from the mentality of the person so afflicted.

The key to surviving depression is first recognizing and acknowledging it. Its definition needs to be clarified so that people who are struggling with it can actually admit to it.

closing for now.

Skype

thanks to Janet Davis Bell, a former neighbor of mine from Van Wert, I tried Skype today and probably made life a muddle for me but time will tell. It has been at least 55 years or more since I had seen this gal from VW. We had been close pals at one time but lost contact with one another through time's passing and moving away from one another. I maybe disappointed her but we will see.

Skype is fun. I liked it as you can see both your partner to whom you are talking and yourself. I found that there are a lot of people on facebook who have skype so that if I wanted to see them and talk I probably could. It also taught me a lesson about friends and the future.

Time is going so fast that it won't be long and we will soon be checking out.

While I believe now that some of us do live repeated lifetimes and probably do it with friends and neighbors it is interesting to me how it is all erased from our consciousness so that to find it we have to have not only faith and belief but the will to learn of it. Whether for the good or the bad can only be determined by the person who experiences it. It has done me some good and I learn all the time.

I do have my own private thoughts which are best to be kept to one's self. I just read a poem about the Versailles that intrigued me.

I had been doing a study of gods and goddesses on live journal for some time. The mention of god in this poem made me chuckle a bit. How easily and readily people can jump the gun not knowing whereof they speak.

So it goes.

Deadline Day for Create Space

Last November I began this project of writing a book about the childhood of Alexander the Great. I have actually completed it but I have decided that it needs another rewrite, more revision, and further development before I send it into a publisher. Today is the deadline for Create Space's offer of a proof book that would be free and sent free to me in paperback form. I did go to Create Space last night and filled out some information but had difficulty in communicating to them some necessary information which has put me on a Oh yeah attitude about the entire thing. I don't know if that company, the computer, or what is having problems but a problem does exist, including the popup button to have them call me. I will try my luck on the small computer to see what happens when I use it.

posting

I have been having some difficulty in getting posts published in recent times making me wonder if it is due to google or to my computer. I do not know which it could be to be honest, as I am not smart enough about computers to know.

Computer assessment

I just went to windows to have my computer checked and she found nothing wrong with it. I did another scan just now (the quick one) and am protected. She did suggest that I probably buy a new computer since keys are worn, and am on vista...interesting, huh? Another test now to be sure that I can publish this post.

Computer Woes

This is where I know that I will know if computer is working properly or not. I have made an appointment to have it checked tomorrow so I must run a test here now.

Computer Woes

This is where I know that I will know if computer is working properly or not. I have made an appointment to have it checked tomorrow so I must run a test here now.