Yours Truly
Janet Fauble at home
Friday, February 20, 2015
Thursday, February 19, 2015
Life's Sorrows
To me, the greatest sorrow in the world is when people actually believe a lie so that it takes control of their lives.
Sharia Law is a lie, a monstrous lie, that grips the lives of Muslims around the world. It is now being practiced in the worst of ways by ISIS, a group of terrorists who claim allegiance to a self proclaimed Caliph as he tries to create his Caliphate in the areas of Syria and Iraq. It is an abomination to realize that these men are tools of the very devil but if any body of men exemplify the meaning of Jesus's exhortation "by their fruits they shall be known ", these group of terrorists are it.
Whether these leaders actually believe their own lies is more than I know but the fact that their followers blindly and willingly buy into it is what is most disturbing.
My first introduction to the world of Islam was the film Lawrence of Arabia with Peter O'Toole which I saw years ago here in the Valley of the Sun with my friend Mary Gola. She and I went to see it in downtown Phoenix after I had bought my first air of contact lens. Therefore, I never forget that movie. The fatalism that is a part of the life of the Arabians is fascinating to watch since the Englishmen fights it so much. This was the first look into the lives of the Arab world then.
Since that time the world has slowly come to know more and more about Islam as television exposes them to us. When royalty ruled the nations of Islam, most nations were pretty quiet and peaceful it seemed. Underneath the broiling sun brewed a hostility and anger against the royal families so deep that they have since been overthrown and forgotten, being replaced by fundamentalist extremists who have raised chaos and havoc in their lands.
The Muslims hate the Jewish settlement of Israel which has long been a cause of dissension between the Jews and the Palestinians. This state of Israel was created after WWII so that the Jews who had been persecuted under Hitler could have a homeland somewhere to practice their faith without interference. However, the problem is that none of the Muslim nations were truly considered and ever since because the state of Israel has grown so much that it has begun to encroach upon the Palestinian lands. Much of the world is angry at Israel for its land grabs and its contempt for the Palestinian people no matter who the leader of Palestine is. Benjamin Netanyahu, the current elected leader of Israel, does not care what the Palestinians think. All he cares abut is the safety of his citizens and how many more settlements that he can build. He rather fearlessly thinks that he has some parts of the Christian world in his hands due to their misinterpretation of scriptures so that he imperialistically grabs land that rightfully belongs to the Palestinians.
In fact, a local Arizona martyr who obviously sided with the Palestinians has been killed in Syria by some means. ISIS had kidnapped her and held her hostage as a pawn with which to barter. But after the capture of a Jordanian pilot was burned alive, Jordan set out to take revenge against the ISIS group which resulted in the death of Kayla Mueller, a former Arizona resident. The Jews hate her because she sided with the Muslims and the Palestinians who are under attack from the bombs being sent from Israel.
Life is not simple in this day and age. Benjamin Netanyahu was asked by the Republican majority leader to come to Congress to speak to the members of Congress about the possibility of nuclear weapons in Iran. Netanyahu is very paranoid about the likelihood of Iran's destroying Israel which it has often promised to do. The USA is afraid of Iran's potential for building nuclear weapons. In truth, several other nations who are friendly to Iran already have nuclear weapons with which they could bomb Israel as well if it were necessary to do so.
Both China and Russia are able to use nuclear weapons against Israel, and for some reason, Israel likes to pretend that it is the only true friend to the USA. That is a ploy to keep those Republican and Democratic congressman whose pockets they line and whose coffers they fill in their pocket.
The truth is that both Netanyahu and the Republicans alike prove how silly and stupid they are in their eagerness to cozy up to one another about the dire consequences if Iran gets nuclear weapons. Nothing makes either look more stupid than their silly fears running amuck making them look like the scared bunnies they obviously are. The Iranians truly do not trust Americans at all so it is rathe surprising that either are in speaking terms, but the nations are trying to come to some agreement to make certain that Iran does not have the capability to create nuclear weapons.
I likened government the other day to a man visiting a brothel but who cannot get his erection, and so now I liken Iran to a woman who would like to be one of the prostitutes but who is kept in her chastity belt. It is a ridiculous state of affairs to pick on one nation of the world when so many others who are just as potentially dangerous already have those same weapons. Trying to keep a woman a virgin in a brothel does seem a bit odd but that is the way it looks to me. Israel is often one big prick who does fear all the other pricks around it.
Sharia Law is a lie, a monstrous lie, that grips the lives of Muslims around the world. It is now being practiced in the worst of ways by ISIS, a group of terrorists who claim allegiance to a self proclaimed Caliph as he tries to create his Caliphate in the areas of Syria and Iraq. It is an abomination to realize that these men are tools of the very devil but if any body of men exemplify the meaning of Jesus's exhortation "by their fruits they shall be known ", these group of terrorists are it.
Whether these leaders actually believe their own lies is more than I know but the fact that their followers blindly and willingly buy into it is what is most disturbing.
My first introduction to the world of Islam was the film Lawrence of Arabia with Peter O'Toole which I saw years ago here in the Valley of the Sun with my friend Mary Gola. She and I went to see it in downtown Phoenix after I had bought my first air of contact lens. Therefore, I never forget that movie. The fatalism that is a part of the life of the Arabians is fascinating to watch since the Englishmen fights it so much. This was the first look into the lives of the Arab world then.
Since that time the world has slowly come to know more and more about Islam as television exposes them to us. When royalty ruled the nations of Islam, most nations were pretty quiet and peaceful it seemed. Underneath the broiling sun brewed a hostility and anger against the royal families so deep that they have since been overthrown and forgotten, being replaced by fundamentalist extremists who have raised chaos and havoc in their lands.
The Muslims hate the Jewish settlement of Israel which has long been a cause of dissension between the Jews and the Palestinians. This state of Israel was created after WWII so that the Jews who had been persecuted under Hitler could have a homeland somewhere to practice their faith without interference. However, the problem is that none of the Muslim nations were truly considered and ever since because the state of Israel has grown so much that it has begun to encroach upon the Palestinian lands. Much of the world is angry at Israel for its land grabs and its contempt for the Palestinian people no matter who the leader of Palestine is. Benjamin Netanyahu, the current elected leader of Israel, does not care what the Palestinians think. All he cares abut is the safety of his citizens and how many more settlements that he can build. He rather fearlessly thinks that he has some parts of the Christian world in his hands due to their misinterpretation of scriptures so that he imperialistically grabs land that rightfully belongs to the Palestinians.
In fact, a local Arizona martyr who obviously sided with the Palestinians has been killed in Syria by some means. ISIS had kidnapped her and held her hostage as a pawn with which to barter. But after the capture of a Jordanian pilot was burned alive, Jordan set out to take revenge against the ISIS group which resulted in the death of Kayla Mueller, a former Arizona resident. The Jews hate her because she sided with the Muslims and the Palestinians who are under attack from the bombs being sent from Israel.
Life is not simple in this day and age. Benjamin Netanyahu was asked by the Republican majority leader to come to Congress to speak to the members of Congress about the possibility of nuclear weapons in Iran. Netanyahu is very paranoid about the likelihood of Iran's destroying Israel which it has often promised to do. The USA is afraid of Iran's potential for building nuclear weapons. In truth, several other nations who are friendly to Iran already have nuclear weapons with which they could bomb Israel as well if it were necessary to do so.
Both China and Russia are able to use nuclear weapons against Israel, and for some reason, Israel likes to pretend that it is the only true friend to the USA. That is a ploy to keep those Republican and Democratic congressman whose pockets they line and whose coffers they fill in their pocket.
The truth is that both Netanyahu and the Republicans alike prove how silly and stupid they are in their eagerness to cozy up to one another about the dire consequences if Iran gets nuclear weapons. Nothing makes either look more stupid than their silly fears running amuck making them look like the scared bunnies they obviously are. The Iranians truly do not trust Americans at all so it is rathe surprising that either are in speaking terms, but the nations are trying to come to some agreement to make certain that Iran does not have the capability to create nuclear weapons.
I likened government the other day to a man visiting a brothel but who cannot get his erection, and so now I liken Iran to a woman who would like to be one of the prostitutes but who is kept in her chastity belt. It is a ridiculous state of affairs to pick on one nation of the world when so many others who are just as potentially dangerous already have those same weapons. Trying to keep a woman a virgin in a brothel does seem a bit odd but that is the way it looks to me. Israel is often one big prick who does fear all the other pricks around it.
60 Day Notice from Landlord
I received two notices from the manager of our apartment complex tonight. I had been prepared for this but the page 1 notice surprised me. Two neighbors next door to me received the same notices so that I knocked on Jane's door to see if hers was like mine. Dale's is stuck in his door but I did look at it to see if the date was the same as ours since Jane had the same end date as I had.
Jane had already told me that she was not supposed to be out until July since she opted for a 15 month lease. I did not have that option. Mine is a 12 month lease. My date was correct as far as I could see. I knew that her apartment had needed renovation but I then found out that mine needs it too.
While small problems in comparison to other poor suffering groups of people in the world, they nonetheless are problems with which I must deal and I have been doing that in the past week.
I have to find a place to live that is not going to be increasing in rent costs each and every year.
So I am going through all my packed boxes to see what I am going to throw away and which I will keep. I may try to sell some things on Craigs List but I do not know how quickly that offers are read and items sold. They get new items daily and it is a game that I do not fully understand at all. One can advertise in newspapers too but that always takes some time I think. But it is a place that I will try since Sandra seems to do so well at it.
Time flies so fast, and I must act quickly since time is of the essence for me. I will have to see how much I can move and to where I can move it.
There is the option to stay here at a higher rate, but I think for me the important thing is to find something that will be permanent over the course of time.
I did play a lotto ticket for $2.00 tonight. I had an idea that a group of numbers would come in. 3 of the numbers that did come in were from that group and so I was did have two of them. But that does not pay me anything.
Also my allergies are acting up here. I do not like the watery eyes and puffiness in my face. My neighbor says that she is having trouble sleeping at night too.
I actually resisted the truffles at Target today. They were Godiva Belgian chocolates but I had to say no. I must lose some of the fat that I have put on in recent years and if I get the truffles I will not be able to lose at all.
I am going to go to bed now. I am a nervous wreck right now. I must find the right place asap.
Jane had already told me that she was not supposed to be out until July since she opted for a 15 month lease. I did not have that option. Mine is a 12 month lease. My date was correct as far as I could see. I knew that her apartment had needed renovation but I then found out that mine needs it too.
While small problems in comparison to other poor suffering groups of people in the world, they nonetheless are problems with which I must deal and I have been doing that in the past week.
I have to find a place to live that is not going to be increasing in rent costs each and every year.
So I am going through all my packed boxes to see what I am going to throw away and which I will keep. I may try to sell some things on Craigs List but I do not know how quickly that offers are read and items sold. They get new items daily and it is a game that I do not fully understand at all. One can advertise in newspapers too but that always takes some time I think. But it is a place that I will try since Sandra seems to do so well at it.
Time flies so fast, and I must act quickly since time is of the essence for me. I will have to see how much I can move and to where I can move it.
There is the option to stay here at a higher rate, but I think for me the important thing is to find something that will be permanent over the course of time.
I did play a lotto ticket for $2.00 tonight. I had an idea that a group of numbers would come in. 3 of the numbers that did come in were from that group and so I was did have two of them. But that does not pay me anything.
Also my allergies are acting up here. I do not like the watery eyes and puffiness in my face. My neighbor says that she is having trouble sleeping at night too.
I actually resisted the truffles at Target today. They were Godiva Belgian chocolates but I had to say no. I must lose some of the fat that I have put on in recent years and if I get the truffles I will not be able to lose at all.
I am going to go to bed now. I am a nervous wreck right now. I must find the right place asap.
Videos from the New York Times
There are two videos from the New York Times which I placed on Facebook tonight. One is about a young Egyptian man who became a body builder and then finally seems to have ended up joining ISIS since his hopes and dreams have not been realized in Egypt. He wanted to find girls and enjoy life but instead found religion which appears to have changed him so that now he is in the army of ISIS. The ideals of these youth seem to want Sharia Law to become the law of the Universe. That is what I gleaned from watching this video.
A more powerful video followed this tale of the young Egyptian to tell the story about the Iraqi soldier who had joined the army since he had no job, no salary, nothing at all but sheer desperation to raise his family in Iraq. The plight of the Iraqi's is that they do need jobs and a life. But while in the army, his troop or group was tricked by ISIS. They had tried to escape by changing into civilian clothes but ISIS trucks and troops caught up with them to lead them to become the first casualties in this Iraq takeover.
This man was left for dead and he tells his story of how he managed to survive and escape on his own, though starving. It is a miraculous story of how Sunni Muslims actually helped this young Shia muslim. It is a must see to realize the truth of how these ISIS militants are treating all the people in their path.
I hope that as many people as possible will see this video because it helps to explain how even the simplest story in that wretched land can affect you. These poor people in that part of the world need help desperately.
A more powerful video followed this tale of the young Egyptian to tell the story about the Iraqi soldier who had joined the army since he had no job, no salary, nothing at all but sheer desperation to raise his family in Iraq. The plight of the Iraqi's is that they do need jobs and a life. But while in the army, his troop or group was tricked by ISIS. They had tried to escape by changing into civilian clothes but ISIS trucks and troops caught up with them to lead them to become the first casualties in this Iraq takeover.
This man was left for dead and he tells his story of how he managed to survive and escape on his own, though starving. It is a miraculous story of how Sunni Muslims actually helped this young Shia muslim. It is a must see to realize the truth of how these ISIS militants are treating all the people in their path.
I hope that as many people as possible will see this video because it helps to explain how even the simplest story in that wretched land can affect you. These poor people in that part of the world need help desperately.
Wednesday, February 18, 2015
What a week!
This has been a very rough week in many ways, and it is only a few days old! It is now the 18th early this morning but i have been working steadily all week with little to demonstrate it if you just walk into the apartment. I have so much work to do but I have been working steadily. Laundry, sorting out boxes, paying bills, cooking, doing dishes, working on my lottery game which I may finally have gained a foothold in solving, and just doing daily tasks, running to the post office, to the grocers, etc. is a lot to cover for me at this time.
I have to keep my plants watered, I have to collect the mail which for today I have not done yet, and I have to keep and sort out all that I have collected in the past two weeks.
I am just trying to keep my head above water, and the water is rising all the time as I try to stay afloat.
I went to Mesa this past week, was reminded tonight due to a road rage incident of an incident that I had with a male driver who was mean and nasty when he suddenly pulled in to where I was driving out so that he nearly hit me. I had to honk the horn loudly and insistently to get him to stop because I swear that he would have hit me had I not. I was so angry at him but I backed up to get around him and he screamed and hurled nasty invectives at me which I naturally swore right back at him with his not hearing a word I said. I got out of there but was angry about it and was reminded of it again tonight.
Then on the weekend I sent 60 some Valentine greetings to Facebook friends from 123greetings. A former high school classmate, Janet Monce Snyder, took it upon herself to remove names from the list so that from what I understand these people did not get the Valentine. I do not know if she did it on purpose or not but it made me angry to think that Facebook would even let her know that I had sent those Valentine greetings out. Each person should have gotten it without knowing that any had been sent to others.
It was one single card with 60 addresses and in my opinion it was nice of 123 greetings to do that. But next night I went back to try an experiment which I could not do. I had sent the same cards to twitter and to google plus which meant that they went on the timeline. At Facebook it was sent to each individual name that I listed. I only did a third of the number of friends that I have. So now none of them know if they were or were not on the list. Thanks to Connie Beach for notifying me that someone had told her about it, and she was kind enough to tell me. Kristin Davis Dean stepped in to help me understand what may have happened.
As a result, last night I did not get to sleep until 4:30 this morning and got up at 9:30 to sleep until ten. I may get to bed sooner tonight.
But not by much I see by the clock on the wall.
And I was reminded of 9/11 again tonight to recall my visions of seeing the two American airliners go into the World Tower Building and the Pentagon. For a moment, the images that I had seen when they first came to me returned vividly again tonight. That interests me a lot, the fact that memories stored in the brain came return to be seen again so vividly.
And because of another post about the Ten Commandments tonight, I read something in Matthew about the transformation where both Moses and Eli come to appear before Jesus. Jesus says in only Matthew information about Eli that proves he believed in reincarnation. So that was enough for me to understand something. I knew immediately what he meant and who he meant and sure enough I was right. That is all for now. A slip just now made me think of something else as well.
Must close now. Jesus is here. I will elucidate a bit. I was considering the fact that visions may be thoughts placed in one's head by angelic spirits. That while sitting in front of a tv which is an instrument that receives images transmitted from one spot to many others, so can probably images that are in one source be transmitted to another so that one can see the image as projected to you when you are the receiver. I had had a vision of Shared Belief the week before his race so that I was convinced that he would win. I have a saying that I use at the track which is "come to me. I am the winner's circle." Thus, when the horse was so near to me in my vision I was certain that he would win. He did.
In that respect, Jesus as known in the teachings of the Christian faith, is in Heaven, but while in Heaven, the father or Jesus either one can project and transmit to any receiver they choose to either receive an image or to receive even the fullness of their being. I am convinced of that totally. That is why I said Jesus is here. Whenever Jesus wishes to project himself or an image of any kind, He can do that.
That is all. Jesus is ever with us, and uses me whenever He sees fit.
I have to keep my plants watered, I have to collect the mail which for today I have not done yet, and I have to keep and sort out all that I have collected in the past two weeks.
I am just trying to keep my head above water, and the water is rising all the time as I try to stay afloat.
I went to Mesa this past week, was reminded tonight due to a road rage incident of an incident that I had with a male driver who was mean and nasty when he suddenly pulled in to where I was driving out so that he nearly hit me. I had to honk the horn loudly and insistently to get him to stop because I swear that he would have hit me had I not. I was so angry at him but I backed up to get around him and he screamed and hurled nasty invectives at me which I naturally swore right back at him with his not hearing a word I said. I got out of there but was angry about it and was reminded of it again tonight.
Then on the weekend I sent 60 some Valentine greetings to Facebook friends from 123greetings. A former high school classmate, Janet Monce Snyder, took it upon herself to remove names from the list so that from what I understand these people did not get the Valentine. I do not know if she did it on purpose or not but it made me angry to think that Facebook would even let her know that I had sent those Valentine greetings out. Each person should have gotten it without knowing that any had been sent to others.
It was one single card with 60 addresses and in my opinion it was nice of 123 greetings to do that. But next night I went back to try an experiment which I could not do. I had sent the same cards to twitter and to google plus which meant that they went on the timeline. At Facebook it was sent to each individual name that I listed. I only did a third of the number of friends that I have. So now none of them know if they were or were not on the list. Thanks to Connie Beach for notifying me that someone had told her about it, and she was kind enough to tell me. Kristin Davis Dean stepped in to help me understand what may have happened.
As a result, last night I did not get to sleep until 4:30 this morning and got up at 9:30 to sleep until ten. I may get to bed sooner tonight.
But not by much I see by the clock on the wall.
And I was reminded of 9/11 again tonight to recall my visions of seeing the two American airliners go into the World Tower Building and the Pentagon. For a moment, the images that I had seen when they first came to me returned vividly again tonight. That interests me a lot, the fact that memories stored in the brain came return to be seen again so vividly.
And because of another post about the Ten Commandments tonight, I read something in Matthew about the transformation where both Moses and Eli come to appear before Jesus. Jesus says in only Matthew information about Eli that proves he believed in reincarnation. So that was enough for me to understand something. I knew immediately what he meant and who he meant and sure enough I was right. That is all for now. A slip just now made me think of something else as well.
Must close now. Jesus is here. I will elucidate a bit. I was considering the fact that visions may be thoughts placed in one's head by angelic spirits. That while sitting in front of a tv which is an instrument that receives images transmitted from one spot to many others, so can probably images that are in one source be transmitted to another so that one can see the image as projected to you when you are the receiver. I had had a vision of Shared Belief the week before his race so that I was convinced that he would win. I have a saying that I use at the track which is "come to me. I am the winner's circle." Thus, when the horse was so near to me in my vision I was certain that he would win. He did.
In that respect, Jesus as known in the teachings of the Christian faith, is in Heaven, but while in Heaven, the father or Jesus either one can project and transmit to any receiver they choose to either receive an image or to receive even the fullness of their being. I am convinced of that totally. That is why I said Jesus is here. Whenever Jesus wishes to project himself or an image of any kind, He can do that.
That is all. Jesus is ever with us, and uses me whenever He sees fit.
Sunday, February 15, 2015
Life Changes
Since my lease is about to run out, I am looking to move to another place somewhere but as of yet I have not decided where. I am trying to do two things at once: find a future place and augment my receding bank account. I must make serious changes as soon as I can.
So yesterday I drove out to a mobile home park in Mesa to check out a trailer that is for sale there. Unfortunately, unbeknownst to me, a memorial for a woman who had recently died was ongoing at the clubhouse, and I did not stay around to meet the guy if he showed at all to see the interior of the mobile home. But because I went early I did find it in the park and knew immediately if I were interested in it or not. NOT!
But I gained a lot by taking the trouble to go out to see this region of Mesa which has so many mobile home parks. I learned how seniors have amenities and opportunities in specialized living quarters that most of us do not have. It is nice to be able to take advantage of travel tours that are offered to those who can afford to take them. I found a company that offers trips to Las Vegas, Laughlin, Karcher Caverns, Catalina Island, and loads more that really impressed me. The costs were good on a group basis. I liked that.
At least, this trip convinced me of many things to consider when moving. If I were to decide upon a mobile home, I would want a newer home than a remodeled old home. I already live in a remodeled older apartment unit and know all the problems that brings. I know from living in an older house the problems that were ongoing there. I do not want to make that mistake in this stage of my older life.
So here I go, trying to solve this problem by making the best decision for myself. I pray that I do it right. I did not start off well just trying to take late mail to the post office. My Valentine's Day cards to three friends went out a day late.
And last night, I divulged one of my personal experiences to another on Facebook regarding 9/11 which maybe I should not have done. However, in so doing, a thought came to me while watching the live horse races. It dawned on me that visions can be thought transmissions sent to a receiver by an angelic spirit. That is all I will say for now.
TATA!
So yesterday I drove out to a mobile home park in Mesa to check out a trailer that is for sale there. Unfortunately, unbeknownst to me, a memorial for a woman who had recently died was ongoing at the clubhouse, and I did not stay around to meet the guy if he showed at all to see the interior of the mobile home. But because I went early I did find it in the park and knew immediately if I were interested in it or not. NOT!
But I gained a lot by taking the trouble to go out to see this region of Mesa which has so many mobile home parks. I learned how seniors have amenities and opportunities in specialized living quarters that most of us do not have. It is nice to be able to take advantage of travel tours that are offered to those who can afford to take them. I found a company that offers trips to Las Vegas, Laughlin, Karcher Caverns, Catalina Island, and loads more that really impressed me. The costs were good on a group basis. I liked that.
At least, this trip convinced me of many things to consider when moving. If I were to decide upon a mobile home, I would want a newer home than a remodeled old home. I already live in a remodeled older apartment unit and know all the problems that brings. I know from living in an older house the problems that were ongoing there. I do not want to make that mistake in this stage of my older life.
So here I go, trying to solve this problem by making the best decision for myself. I pray that I do it right. I did not start off well just trying to take late mail to the post office. My Valentine's Day cards to three friends went out a day late.
And last night, I divulged one of my personal experiences to another on Facebook regarding 9/11 which maybe I should not have done. However, in so doing, a thought came to me while watching the live horse races. It dawned on me that visions can be thought transmissions sent to a receiver by an angelic spirit. That is all I will say for now.
TATA!
Friday, February 13, 2015
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
Reworking the Mind
Facebook is so nice to remind all our Facebook friends that we have a birthday today. I just read through so many greetings that it made me very happy to know that people would take the time to send me a greeting. Believe it or not, it does touch me that my friends do that much for me.
I am going to go to the Fort with Sandra and Elijah who wants to take me out for my birthday, so this will be a special treat for the three of us.
I will admit that at my age few of my old friends are left and I know that one of these days I too will be going to my grave. That is what one thinks about when one is past the 3/4 century mark. I have been thinking about it for some time now. I have not accumulated any great wealth to share with others. Since I am unmarried, childless, I do not have heirs to consider in the disposal of my worldly goods. Most families have already made their wills to include all their children. When one is childless, one does not think about who should or will gain possession of any worldly goods that one has.
All that I have is a lot of things that my mother and dad left to me after they passed, and I must find a way to finally settle their accounts for them. Many things I will simply give to charity but there are a few things that I may have to sell simply to help me in my final years. I do not have social security coming in due to the fact that while a teacher in California my salary was not converted to the social security system but instead to the California Retirement Fund, which I naturally drew upon once I left the state. I had exactly a 711 amount paid into that system which tells me a lot to this day! In social security which I had paid into prior to that teaching experience I only had $17,000 so total for my retirement at that age I had $24,000. Is this a fix? You bet your sweet ass it is.
I am a big girl and I do know the facts of life. I know what it will take for me to survive in the next ten years, and so I have been reading facts from International Living which seems to point me in the direction of becoming an exPat to settle in some other part of the world in which the cost of living is commensurate with all that I have left to spend on my retirement years.
Yes, I have been trying to find a way out of this dilemma of life in America. None of us are ever truly prepared for our final days no matter how many times we are told to be prepared for its coming.
It is unlikely that I can be hired for any job since I know myself that I do not even want to consider that. I do look to other means of bringing in dollars, one of which is to write a blockbuster book but that dims daily as well. Publishers are playing new games today and writers who want to be successful have to do what the so called publishers want instead of really writing the story that they want to tell. One has limits of words, titles, and even character development, and frankly, in my opinion, most books today have no real value at all. The world was a better place for quality writers years ago. Today, most publishers want the writers who jump when they say jump. I personally do not like that at all.
However, one topic has caught my fancy recently. I have read two books which actually do refer to these same situations but neither has made a dent in the book world as far as I can see. Yes, they did get published but they did not make headlines. Fifty Shades of Gray seems to be the ongoing style book that publishers want.
The New York Times has a series in its newspaper now on billionaires who live in the grand high rises in Manhattan. These billionaires stories are being told with a journalistic bent. In my opinion, this is the kind of book that needs to be written in a style that will not only shed a bit of light on the problem while sensationalizing it as well. The realization that Manhattan is owned by so many foreign billionaires fascinates me. Why would anyone want to park their butts in NYC is more than I can comprehend but it is obvious that it appeals to the very richest of the rich.
I became involved in the past due to some internal diggings in my mind. I knew absolutely nothing about any of these men until I embarked on this self discovery program. Learning what i did while in a state of self hypnosis has truly made an impact on me. I have no final conclusions about it except that it gave me an insight and look at life in times past that I truly loved and enjoyed learning. I have had to undergo many different ways of assimilating this into my self awareness so as not to be overwhelmed by it all. My experiences were so satisfying to me that I eventually learned to let them rest in the past where they are still buried to make today count even more profoundly than I had thought possible. We are all caught in the environment that gives us birth, and we can only become what our destiny allows us to be with the resources that are at hand as we grow to maturity in this lifetime.
I do not expect that much of my life now as I am slowly coming to its end. Whether I shall return to the earth life in a future generation is yet unknown to me even though I had thought i had gleaned a look into it. In many ways, I understand why most hope that this time round is the end all to an earthly life and that our souls should simply rest in that Heavenly promise that so many religious beliefs seem to offer.
Life is NOT what we make it. Life is not totally within our ability to make it anything that we think we might want it to be. None of us is able to overcome the family life into which we are born which is the real basis for our growth into adulthood. No matter whether born into great wealth or poverty, one is nurtured by that lifestyle so that it dictates to us which road we have to take in order to survive.
Most children follow in their family's footsteps while a few rebel against the family to reject that choice offered to them. In many cases, parents want better for their children than they had so that they do not require that they follow their pattern. In my case, that is how my parents treated me. They wanted better for me than what they had had in their lives.
Thus, I got a college degree, went out on my own, and became a part of the community which employed me to do the job that I had been trained to do. However, family did interrupt my own career plans so that I ended up reuniting with my parents to end up living with them for the remainder of their days so that I am finally alone with only distant relatives and a few really true friends.
Age happens to all of us. Before you know, life has followed the same old pattern of the normal life cycle many times over so that now I have relatives who have grandchildren and great grandchildren. I have learned to adapt to this ever changing world but I miss the simplicity of the dial phone, the non computer age in which cars used stick shifts, and typewriters, egg beaters, and even coffee percolators were standard. Those days are gone but they are a big part of my youth. Today's children have an entirely new world in which we aged have had to cope learning how to use a smart phone, a computer, fancy cars that are totally computerized, and even coffee makers that make a single cup of coffee. The young will always have that as the basis for their life experience. What a world we are having to learn and understand.
I am going to go to the Fort with Sandra and Elijah who wants to take me out for my birthday, so this will be a special treat for the three of us.
I will admit that at my age few of my old friends are left and I know that one of these days I too will be going to my grave. That is what one thinks about when one is past the 3/4 century mark. I have been thinking about it for some time now. I have not accumulated any great wealth to share with others. Since I am unmarried, childless, I do not have heirs to consider in the disposal of my worldly goods. Most families have already made their wills to include all their children. When one is childless, one does not think about who should or will gain possession of any worldly goods that one has.
All that I have is a lot of things that my mother and dad left to me after they passed, and I must find a way to finally settle their accounts for them. Many things I will simply give to charity but there are a few things that I may have to sell simply to help me in my final years. I do not have social security coming in due to the fact that while a teacher in California my salary was not converted to the social security system but instead to the California Retirement Fund, which I naturally drew upon once I left the state. I had exactly a 711 amount paid into that system which tells me a lot to this day! In social security which I had paid into prior to that teaching experience I only had $17,000 so total for my retirement at that age I had $24,000. Is this a fix? You bet your sweet ass it is.
I am a big girl and I do know the facts of life. I know what it will take for me to survive in the next ten years, and so I have been reading facts from International Living which seems to point me in the direction of becoming an exPat to settle in some other part of the world in which the cost of living is commensurate with all that I have left to spend on my retirement years.
Yes, I have been trying to find a way out of this dilemma of life in America. None of us are ever truly prepared for our final days no matter how many times we are told to be prepared for its coming.
It is unlikely that I can be hired for any job since I know myself that I do not even want to consider that. I do look to other means of bringing in dollars, one of which is to write a blockbuster book but that dims daily as well. Publishers are playing new games today and writers who want to be successful have to do what the so called publishers want instead of really writing the story that they want to tell. One has limits of words, titles, and even character development, and frankly, in my opinion, most books today have no real value at all. The world was a better place for quality writers years ago. Today, most publishers want the writers who jump when they say jump. I personally do not like that at all.
However, one topic has caught my fancy recently. I have read two books which actually do refer to these same situations but neither has made a dent in the book world as far as I can see. Yes, they did get published but they did not make headlines. Fifty Shades of Gray seems to be the ongoing style book that publishers want.
The New York Times has a series in its newspaper now on billionaires who live in the grand high rises in Manhattan. These billionaires stories are being told with a journalistic bent. In my opinion, this is the kind of book that needs to be written in a style that will not only shed a bit of light on the problem while sensationalizing it as well. The realization that Manhattan is owned by so many foreign billionaires fascinates me. Why would anyone want to park their butts in NYC is more than I can comprehend but it is obvious that it appeals to the very richest of the rich.
I became involved in the past due to some internal diggings in my mind. I knew absolutely nothing about any of these men until I embarked on this self discovery program. Learning what i did while in a state of self hypnosis has truly made an impact on me. I have no final conclusions about it except that it gave me an insight and look at life in times past that I truly loved and enjoyed learning. I have had to undergo many different ways of assimilating this into my self awareness so as not to be overwhelmed by it all. My experiences were so satisfying to me that I eventually learned to let them rest in the past where they are still buried to make today count even more profoundly than I had thought possible. We are all caught in the environment that gives us birth, and we can only become what our destiny allows us to be with the resources that are at hand as we grow to maturity in this lifetime.
I do not expect that much of my life now as I am slowly coming to its end. Whether I shall return to the earth life in a future generation is yet unknown to me even though I had thought i had gleaned a look into it. In many ways, I understand why most hope that this time round is the end all to an earthly life and that our souls should simply rest in that Heavenly promise that so many religious beliefs seem to offer.
Life is NOT what we make it. Life is not totally within our ability to make it anything that we think we might want it to be. None of us is able to overcome the family life into which we are born which is the real basis for our growth into adulthood. No matter whether born into great wealth or poverty, one is nurtured by that lifestyle so that it dictates to us which road we have to take in order to survive.
Most children follow in their family's footsteps while a few rebel against the family to reject that choice offered to them. In many cases, parents want better for their children than they had so that they do not require that they follow their pattern. In my case, that is how my parents treated me. They wanted better for me than what they had had in their lives.
Thus, I got a college degree, went out on my own, and became a part of the community which employed me to do the job that I had been trained to do. However, family did interrupt my own career plans so that I ended up reuniting with my parents to end up living with them for the remainder of their days so that I am finally alone with only distant relatives and a few really true friends.
Age happens to all of us. Before you know, life has followed the same old pattern of the normal life cycle many times over so that now I have relatives who have grandchildren and great grandchildren. I have learned to adapt to this ever changing world but I miss the simplicity of the dial phone, the non computer age in which cars used stick shifts, and typewriters, egg beaters, and even coffee percolators were standard. Those days are gone but they are a big part of my youth. Today's children have an entirely new world in which we aged have had to cope learning how to use a smart phone, a computer, fancy cars that are totally computerized, and even coffee makers that make a single cup of coffee. The young will always have that as the basis for their life experience. What a world we are having to learn and understand.
Deep thoughts
This will be quite deep. Today, a child in Ohio has been arrested for the killing of her 2 month old baby sister. She was only 11 years old. While her mother slept in her room, the pretty little girl unmercifully bludgeoned and beat the 2 month old to death. Now nobody can understand why it is that she did this. But there is little doubt that this mother grieves over the loss of two of her children.
I remember when I was ten I baby sat for a family who lived a few streets from where I lived, and I would walk there after school to baby sit for an hour or so. It was my first job. I loved the babies then, and I will always love babies. I was taught at an early age on how to hold a baby so that his head would be balanced, and how to love and handle him. I knew how to change diapers, and how to feed a baby.
So when I was 14, I walked to my aunt and uncle's house to help them while my Aunt recovered from her birthing experience with her second son. Her first was one years old when her second was born so that i was asked to help care for the babies. I learned more that summer about the reality of being a mother than anyone can imagine, and I think of that when I think of this poor 11 year old girl having to care for her young sister.
It is frankly too much to ask of a child to have to do the duties that a mother must perform. Changing diapers, making formula, feeding the baby, burping the baby, holding and rocking the baby to sleep, listening to the cries and screams is a torment for a young child who does not understand why it is that a baby must have tender, loving care. It is possible that the older sister was jealous of all the attention that a baby naturally requires. Whatever the case, one must realize that the mother is who is most responsible for the wellbeing of both children, and that the girl who could not handle it must be given the benefit of love from older and more compassionate adults.
I am feeling for the older girl since I know how I felt when I learned what it took to be a mother to a newborn. It is a rough and tough job. I did all those things that I mentioned above, in addition to cleaning bottles, sterilizing them, filling them with formula, I watched my aunt squeeze her breasts to get rid of the milk that forms when pregnant with child. I istened to the baby cry at night, and listened to the parents as they took turns tending to his cries. I assisted in cleaning the small house, the bottles, and the diapers. In those days, we did not have modern conveniences like throwaway diapers. We had cloth diapers that had to be rinsed and wished right away. I admit that I came to love the smell of baby powder, and there is nothing better than lubricating a baby's bottom and putting powder on it so that he does not chap. But children must be taught to do this.
So I am concerned about people's reaction to an over stressed little girl in Ohio who did not have the patience and the strength to overcome her own anxieties about her baby sister. She has a picture of herself on her Facebook page holding the baby in her arms. This little girl of 11 must be given love and compassion as well as her mother. It is such a tragedy that I am just hoping that she gets the right treatment for her snapping. I pray for her.
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
Kayla Mueller, a young martyr!
Kayla Mueller is a young woman, 26 years old, from Prescott, Arizona who has been held hostage by ISIS terrorists for 18 months. She has been pronounced dead by the ISIS group who claim that she was killed during a Jordanian air strike. Jordan promised to retaliate against the group after a video film was released showing the vicious burning alive of a pilot who had unfortunately fallen into Syria territory to be picked up by ISIS terrorists.
Jordan denied vehemently that their bombs had caused the death of the young woman, and it was proved pretty convincingly by the FBI that the supposed building where she was purported to have been killed did not show any sign of bombing from the Jordanian bombers. There were no smoldering embers or smoke rising from a scene which would have had evidence of recent bombing. However, the family in Prescott asked for proof from the ISIS terrorists that their daughter had been killed, and so in an email a photo of the girl was sent to the parents that verified that she was indeed dead.
A lot of stories are being distributed about what may have happened to her while in captivity. Supposedly, she had been with her boyfriend when she was captured, and it appears that he had tried to get her released from captivity also. But another story is circulating tonight on ABC that she may have been forced into a marriage to one of the leading commanders of ISIS. However, a statement by one of the hostages who had been released through a deal did indicate that she had been held with the other prisoners. None of these stories about this girl should be taken seriously.
A letter she wrote to her parents while in prison has been shared with the public tonight. You can tell that she is using care in what she is saying and I would imagine that she was trying to make certain that if found by the ISIS group it would not hurt her in any way. She spoke well and positively of her treatment which is a smart thing to do if it fell into the wrong hands.
As it is, it did reach her parents, and CBS tonight made a story out of it comparing it to both Anne Frank and Martin Luther King, and calling it One Page.
No matter what, I understand why she did the smart thing to find the "good" in everything. Even in her captivity, she was able to find some good in her surroundings. I would imagine that good might be to give comfort to the other hostages.
Yes, she risked her life to help save the needy in Syria, and she paid for it. I am certain that she has reached a place in Heavenly Love to be well rewarded for her courage and bravery. Very few young women would dare to do this remarkable effort but she is now being remembered and celebrated.
God bless Kayla and may Heavenly Peace descend upon her family.
Jordan denied vehemently that their bombs had caused the death of the young woman, and it was proved pretty convincingly by the FBI that the supposed building where she was purported to have been killed did not show any sign of bombing from the Jordanian bombers. There were no smoldering embers or smoke rising from a scene which would have had evidence of recent bombing. However, the family in Prescott asked for proof from the ISIS terrorists that their daughter had been killed, and so in an email a photo of the girl was sent to the parents that verified that she was indeed dead.
A lot of stories are being distributed about what may have happened to her while in captivity. Supposedly, she had been with her boyfriend when she was captured, and it appears that he had tried to get her released from captivity also. But another story is circulating tonight on ABC that she may have been forced into a marriage to one of the leading commanders of ISIS. However, a statement by one of the hostages who had been released through a deal did indicate that she had been held with the other prisoners. None of these stories about this girl should be taken seriously.
A letter she wrote to her parents while in prison has been shared with the public tonight. You can tell that she is using care in what she is saying and I would imagine that she was trying to make certain that if found by the ISIS group it would not hurt her in any way. She spoke well and positively of her treatment which is a smart thing to do if it fell into the wrong hands.
As it is, it did reach her parents, and CBS tonight made a story out of it comparing it to both Anne Frank and Martin Luther King, and calling it One Page.
No matter what, I understand why she did the smart thing to find the "good" in everything. Even in her captivity, she was able to find some good in her surroundings. I would imagine that good might be to give comfort to the other hostages.
Yes, she risked her life to help save the needy in Syria, and she paid for it. I am certain that she has reached a place in Heavenly Love to be well rewarded for her courage and bravery. Very few young women would dare to do this remarkable effort but she is now being remembered and celebrated.
God bless Kayla and may Heavenly Peace descend upon her family.
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
Thoughts on the burning of a Jordanian Pilot
DMLDaily.com has the video which shows the burning of the Jordanian pilot who was captured by ISIS December 24, 2014. I decided to watch it after seeing still photos which were available on the internet. The networks won't show the video to the world at large but the world of Islam has seen the videos on big screens in Iraq and probably many other places where television is available. Once I had access to the video I could not stop myself from seeing it.
I posted it to my Facebook timeline for those of my friends who might want to see it. I cannot control who Facebook sends it to in the newsfeed but my settings are for friends. None have responded to the video so far so I am not sure if Facebook is sending it or not. That is why I decided to write this piece about it.
I was saddened to see so many men in uniforms with their faces covered holding weapons in their hands while this lone victim was dressed in the standard orange suit that the ISIS groups make their prisoners wear for their execution. He walked alone in front of all those soldiers who were positioned around an area in which a large cage was erected. This cage reminds me of the play 1984 so I got the message from that alone.
The pilot had a black eye from where he had been punched in the face obviously. He looked around at all the men who were holding their weapons as he walked towards the cage. He had been doused with a substance that was obviously flammable. After he was placed in the cage, a soldier knelt down with a torch in his hand to light the fire that traveled quickly to the cage to set him afire. He screamed pitifully and then finally collapsed to his knees to kneel while his entire body was burnt to a black crisp. He finally fell backward so that then a caterpillar came forward to drop a load of concrete through the top of the cage down upon his charred body. The amount of concrete was excessive but it covered his body quickly, and there the video ends. I have never felt such pity and sorrow for someone in my life. It was horrid, unbelievably cruel, and so senseless that one cannot comprehend the video photographer's ease at filming this dreadful sight.
This is cruelty, barbarism, and sadism beyond belief! I honestly believe that certain adults should see this to understand why it is that the world of Islam is being treated to this as a way to coerce and to intimidate them into submitting to this evil ISIS groups demands. It is horrific so that those of us who they hate so much must know in order to protect ourselves from them, and to hold an advantage over them.
Ignorance is the worst problem that a free world has. If we do not know the true nature of our enemies, we will surely be unable to defend ourselves against them.
If ISIS would do this to a pilot from Jordan, what would they do to an American pilot who they hate even worse? They used this poor man as an example of their hatred, their cruelty, their demonic way so that the world would know that this would happen to anyone who they deem guilty.
After I saw how he had suffered, I wished that he had had a cyanide pill to have taken just to avoid this fate. There is no need for any soldier to ever suffer so cruelly as this.
If you cannot stomach this simple description, then do not see the video. But it is better to know and to see it for yourself than to just hear about it. Only by watching this poor man's demise can anyone understand fully why we must stop ISIS NOW, not a day later! This vile evil must end...ISIS cannot survive!
I posted it to my Facebook timeline for those of my friends who might want to see it. I cannot control who Facebook sends it to in the newsfeed but my settings are for friends. None have responded to the video so far so I am not sure if Facebook is sending it or not. That is why I decided to write this piece about it.
I was saddened to see so many men in uniforms with their faces covered holding weapons in their hands while this lone victim was dressed in the standard orange suit that the ISIS groups make their prisoners wear for their execution. He walked alone in front of all those soldiers who were positioned around an area in which a large cage was erected. This cage reminds me of the play 1984 so I got the message from that alone.
The pilot had a black eye from where he had been punched in the face obviously. He looked around at all the men who were holding their weapons as he walked towards the cage. He had been doused with a substance that was obviously flammable. After he was placed in the cage, a soldier knelt down with a torch in his hand to light the fire that traveled quickly to the cage to set him afire. He screamed pitifully and then finally collapsed to his knees to kneel while his entire body was burnt to a black crisp. He finally fell backward so that then a caterpillar came forward to drop a load of concrete through the top of the cage down upon his charred body. The amount of concrete was excessive but it covered his body quickly, and there the video ends. I have never felt such pity and sorrow for someone in my life. It was horrid, unbelievably cruel, and so senseless that one cannot comprehend the video photographer's ease at filming this dreadful sight.
This is cruelty, barbarism, and sadism beyond belief! I honestly believe that certain adults should see this to understand why it is that the world of Islam is being treated to this as a way to coerce and to intimidate them into submitting to this evil ISIS groups demands. It is horrific so that those of us who they hate so much must know in order to protect ourselves from them, and to hold an advantage over them.
Ignorance is the worst problem that a free world has. If we do not know the true nature of our enemies, we will surely be unable to defend ourselves against them.
If ISIS would do this to a pilot from Jordan, what would they do to an American pilot who they hate even worse? They used this poor man as an example of their hatred, their cruelty, their demonic way so that the world would know that this would happen to anyone who they deem guilty.
After I saw how he had suffered, I wished that he had had a cyanide pill to have taken just to avoid this fate. There is no need for any soldier to ever suffer so cruelly as this.
If you cannot stomach this simple description, then do not see the video. But it is better to know and to see it for yourself than to just hear about it. Only by watching this poor man's demise can anyone understand fully why we must stop ISIS NOW, not a day later! This vile evil must end...ISIS cannot survive!
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